Flash Fiction: Poetics

“Now is the time to crush the fruit / And brew the wine of memory.”

Six years old, she stands before me, my doppelganger. She has recited the seventeen stanzas of the Poem on Deep Space better than I could have myself. Her scabbard swings empty at her belt; someone tied the sash and sword-knot with ceremonial correctness. She stands at attention like a miniature of my own cadet-portrait.

The man who wrote that poem–well, my name is on it, but the man who wrote that, the young man who called himself middle-aged, the poet Martisset, is dead.

I don’t remember these hands writing that poem, but all of the collateral descendants recite it. He wrote it seven years after he bowed to his clan-patron’s wishes and cut the leads to the Ship’s-Heart, and four years after his clan-spouse, another retired Captain, died in a skimmer-crash.

They had imagined pursing clan-politics and botany for decades. Ship’s-Widows, they had called themselves, not entirely in jest. 

Twice-widowed, he called himself, in earnest.

***

The borderlands expire thanks to the hundred violins; the songs of dead empire whirl away into the smoke and silence of legend. Seventy years ago now, they first offered me the position of Admiral.

I quirked an eyebrow. “There are only Captains in space.”

And Captains only serve at Crew’s Discretion, and the Ship’s, but you can’t explain that to planet-siders. They were a beautiful couple, full of antique virtue, and my elders. A poetic form retains inertia, and they were animated by zeal for an imaginary past and an even more imaginary future.

I was far their junior, so did not explain myself, only declined the honor.

They conceived a son, so it’s said, by the Genetic Pantheon. His mother is his mother, or was, but his father is Antis yr Astok, the Builder of Cities.

***

After the parents died (no one called it an assassination) the son came to me and repeated the offer.

This time I was the elder. 

“Accounts of galactic empire are attested in the lore of the Original World,” I said dryly, “but textual analysis has established that those tales far predate the era of interstellar travel.”

His face was inhumanly symmetric in its beauty, but I do not think that I ever looked upon Void that shook me quite like his golden eyes.

“Very well, then,” he said. “I have time. There will come another chance.”

***

The child looks at me, waiting patiently for my judgment of her recitation.

“Very admirable,” I say. “Your clan-patron has no need to fear for her honor.”

She clicks her heels and bows, a short clipped gesture. The scabbard swings on its knot, bumping softly against the floorboards.

“So do you know how we come to share a name?” I ask. Idle curiosity, and not. What sort of ambitions do her parents cherish for her?

The morning sun catches on her pale skin, like mine, and lights her green eyes–what on Sarronny they call leaf-and-water–and pale hair.

“Martis or Mortis, the Pale Rider,” she replies. “Martisset is a child of the Pale Rider.”

“And what gender is that deity?”

“None,” she replies in her high clear voice. “Death has neither gender nor sex. Not any more than the sea.” That sharp face, with its hard lines, might belong to a child of the Pale Rider in earnest.  We remember that deity, but do not worship it. Martis/Mortis, so the legend says, invented the organized warfare that ravaged the Original World for millennia and (some conjecture) drove us to the journey-ships.

However much my many-times-grand-nephew would like to revive the practice, and in space no less, the great-clans resist him. We might feud among ourselves, but it stops far short of what our remote ancestors might have done.

The Pale Rider might take any of us. The criminal disappears after the inventor, becomes General, or Admiral, or Dictator, or as on the fortress planet of T-7, the Immortal–no longer a criminal, but a god.

“And what are the colors of Martis?”

“White,” says the young one, reciting a lesson. “White is the color of death.”

“And red?”

“Only in antiquity.”

***

This week’s flash fiction challenge from Terribleminds.

Constraints: under 1000 words, must contain one of the following three sentences.

  • The borderlands expire thanks to the hundred violins.
  • A poetic pattern retains inertia.
  • The criminal disappears after the inventor.

As an inveterate completist, I went for the win.

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Goals: Getting the Groove Back (Part 3) and the Positives of Form 1040A

As mentioned on yesterday’s blog post, this is the second year I filed my taxes after everybody else, and because this was the year I poured a lot of time and money into my writing business, putting together the spreadsheet was something of a retrospective of the year.

(Which, by the way, is not how it’s going to be going forward. I am NOT going to leave everything to the last minute. We are doing monthly accounting at a minimum, because there is just too much going on.)

One of the positives of filing taxes as a small business person is that it teaches you to keep track of the stuff you should be tracking anyway. The first year that I did a seriously complicated return, I actually sat down in January and read the IRS Form 1040A instructions from cover to cover, in a spirit of curiosity and nonattachment. That’s a fine political science exercise, aside from any business lessons; you can see the track of the lobbyists. (Oil, timber, railroads, etc: every one of the Great Powers of American industry have left their footprints all over the tax code.) Also, if you are not freaking out at the time, those instructions are a fine example of good technical writing.

They are also an object lesson for the math-phobic in Why Algebra is a Good Thing, but that’s a whole ‘nother post.

In the track of what we spent, we see the outline of our real priorities. This year I spent a lot of time and money immersing myself in the genre I was going to be writing for National Novel Writing Month: tons of space opera and a few classic detective novels. Inside the Jump is neither classic space opera nor classic detective fiction; like everything I’ve written, it bounces off the standard setups and lands in another solar system entirely. Since I’m still writing in that universe, I’ve started an Acknowledgments and Sources document for the entire series, and it’s growing by the day. A lot of my nonfiction has fed into it, including books I bought this year.

On the fiction front, I’m reading a whole lot of SF/F writers from around the world. Among the luminaries I’ve met just this year I can include N.K.Jemisin, Aliette de Bodard, Zen Cho, Ann Aguirre, Seanan McGuire, Genevieve Valentine, and the many contributors to anthologies such as The Mothership and Long Hidden. Creating the spreadsheet of my ebook purchases was a lot like reviewing the pictures from the most epic summer vacation ever. OK, not everybody puts spreadsheets and nostalgia in the same sentence, but there’s nothing like seeing the cold hard numbers (I spent money on this, and then I spent the time to read it) to say, yes, I value this enough to give it a piece of my life.

And the taxes are done for this year, so after I do some more fun things (writing!) I’m going to set up the accounting system and the files so that next year’s filing does not feel like a doctoral dissertation.

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Dream casting for Ship’s Heart (Yasmin and Jehen)

I just realized that I do have a mental image for Jehen and Yasmin (currently children in the current chapter of Ship’s Heart, the beginning of a forty-year journey, to conclude in a detective/political thriller and an interstellar heist caper ). In my dreams, the leads are cast as follows:

Quvenzhané Wallis as little Yasmin (who will grow up to be the ruling intelligence of a sentient starship)

Amandla Stenberg as little Jehen (who will be a starship captain).

Both young actors are adorable and badass in equal portion, and they light up the screen.

 

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Tuesday write-in and new Ship’s Heart excerpt!

Here I am out in White Bear Lake at Your Mom’s Basement, a gaming cafe where Tuesday nights see tournaments for Magic, the Gathering, among other tabletop and computer games. (Absolutely awesome for random snippets of arcana from someone else’s fictional universe, just saying.)

After a marathon write-in with colleagues yesterday and on the weekend, my work on 2013 taxes is done, and the detailed documentation printed for my accountant.

In 2013 and 2014 the hurricane at Ye Olde Day Jobbe reached category 5. Both years, I was obliged to file an extension on my taxes. As I put together this year’s return, I lost hours tracking down the caches of documents and preliminary work all over my apartment (luckily, not so on my computer, because all the paper stuff gets boiled down into one gigantic multi-sheet spreadsheet).

This morning I met with my accountant, and that work is done. Alongside my colleagues who have just finished final exams, I am full of energy and resolution.

So tonight I’m working on the next scenes of Ship’s Heart. The following excerpt was written yesterday, by way of break from the tax work. This is the vortex dance, the traditional community dance held at Sarronny Dome at the annual arrival of the supply ships without which the colony cannot live.

Yasmin found herself oddly without fear; she had worried that she might not catch the baton properly in her turn, or manage the hand-drums or striking-sticks, but once she was part of the great vortex, she flowed with it; she felt her chest vibrate with the song outside and the song inside. Music surrounded her as the great drums beat out heart’s-thunder. She followed the song, as Sarronny Dome, great-hearted, rang with it; one to the other, they all danced. The Captains, brother and sister, the Quartermaster and the Doctor and the Engineer, turned in the Crew’s Dance, all three drawing in and turning back to back as one unit, with the Captains and the Ship’s-Heart orbiting outside them. Vortices inside the great vortex, dances within the great dance.

Yasmin laughed, as Matar and Altair and Sita and Estrel, the gene-parents, spun by, mixing up the action by briefly lifting each other to chest-height and passing the hand-drums overhead. Jehen was spinning in her own circle, eyes closed and the ribbons of her regalia twisting and swinging out from their yoke like the arms of a miniature galaxy. Ferenc grabbed her hands, and they leaned backward, spinning about their common center like a binary star.

The vortex-dance was the dance of the universe, and all things swam in it. At the festival of the supply ships, some number of the kin returned from the Road of the Stars to remind them of the greater world.

Why? How? For the moment, her questions hung in abeyance.

Just like this, all of it aflow like a single organism.

Just like this, each to each.

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Weekend Writing Warriors: Sunday 11 May 2014 (Character Interview: Inside the Jump)

It wouldn’t be for at least a year (an eternity at seventeen and eighteen) that the rota would come round to pair us, if it ever did , so I took matters into my own hands, and invited Jehen on an excursion in my own skimmer. High we flew, high, higher than they let anyone fly in the Academy skimmers. My skimmer was not a teaching craft but the real thing, designed and built by engineering masters, and lovingly maintained by me. (If you don’t know your own craft and its state at any moment, you risk your own life and every life aboard.) 

As we rose above the towers of the Academy in time to greet the sun breaking over the Inland Sea, Jehen burst into song, a pure wordless aria that send shivers through me and set every hair aquiver, as if I had been transmogrified into feather-antennae with ecstasy at the heart. 

That song came not from an Artist on a performer’s dais, but from Jehen, dark and masterful and quicksilver, whom I had admired in the dancing-arena and the trial flights. Terrifying, exotic Jehen who would to a certainty be Captain of her own Ship seven years hence. 

(They don’t name that number, by the way; it’s the Fourth Prime and I learned that fast, without having to be scolded for it, unlike the business of lounging on the grass which I never again did after Jehen rebuked me.)

***

Character interview with the archaeologist and Expedition Chief, Martisset yr Astok, from NaNo 2013, Inside the Jump. Weekend Writing Warriors offers eight-sentence excerpts from a variety of writers; see the other excerpts here.

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Genre Trouble: The Genre Queer Manifesto (For Young Writers Who Have Contemplated the Genre Straitjacket, When the Story is Enough)

(For Stephanie, on the occasion of her MFA.)

In November 2010, I finished my first ever NaNo novel, the first one that had a completed story arc, the first one that I could hand over to beta readers. 

I sent it to them in fear and trembling, or rather, I sent it off with desperate recklessness and then had a mini-meltdown of too-late panic because Now They Will Know the Awful Stuff on the Inside of My Head, and I Probably Got it Wrong Too.

One of my beta readers told me that it reminded her of her father’s stories of life in the Chinese Cultural Revolution.

Another remembered her father pointing out sights in the long-post-WWII Paris of her childhood, “And that is where a swastika banner hung, and that is where Gestapo headquarters was.”

Yet another saw racial and gender passing, “even the cat is passing!”, as well as a dangerous, uncertain cityscape here in Minneapolis.

Two of my beta-readers inundated me with reading (Shirley Jackson’s Hill House, Stephen King’s On Writing, Jacqueline Carey’s Kushiel series, Tananarive Due’s Joplin’s Ghost and The Good House, the entire Dresden Files series up to that point, Nicola Griffith in all her edgy glory, all of C. E. Murphy). 

Good times.

I learned a ton about genre and dramatic structure, and realized that BrainSister had found Shape-shifter’s Tale so very provocative because all unknowing, it took pretty much every urban-fantasy and paranormal-romance trope and kicked it squarely in the teeth.

We tell our stories, and we tell the shape of the world as we see it. “Tell all the Truth, but tell it slant” as Emily Dickinson said it. We put monsters in suburbia (King), talk about meritocracy and racism in a school for wizards (Rowling), raise ghosts and bend time to talk about artistic lineage and the weight of history (Due). Our stuff doesn’t fit, though. It isn’t commercial. It isn’t just like the others and it doesn’t meet Hollywood spec, because we want us and ours to be the heroes when we’ve been relegated to cannon fodder or local colo(u)r, or our magic doesn’t work the way other people’s magic does, or we aren’t riffing on storylines that everybody recognizes.

BrainSister, beloved provocateur, handed me one of those “how to write genre” books, specifically Passionate Ink by Angela Knight. It purports to tell the reader how to write erotic romance, so I took it in the spirit of professional curiosity about another professional’s opinion. Yes, there is TEH SEXEH in my books, and yes, long ago I vowed that my Sexy-Times Scenes would rival those of any full-time erotica writer, my Scary-Times would give King and Lovecraft and anybody else a good run for their money, and my battle scenes would resurrect Leo Tolstoy and make him hand over the crown for Best War Stories Ever.

On the other hand, I rather suspected her of friendly trolling (you know, so that we could bond over some rage-facing). 

And indeedy so I did.

In a few days, I’m going to post the three-way conversation that BrainSister, Truant, and I had back in August 2012. We talked Fifty Shades of Gray, rape-as-romance, and yes, you will learn what I really thought of this nasty little handbook. OK, no spoiler alert necessary: it gave me flashbacks to my 17th year when I decided to check out the romance genre and I read a stack of Harlequins and fat slick-covered bodice-rippers, and recoiled in horror at (what I’d now call) the casual rape-apology and the complete absence of any notion of consent. (Now they call it “forced seduction” and insist that’s somehow different from “real rape.” I call bullshit.)

Yes, this will be a whole lot less polite than what readers have seen in my professional persona thus far, but in my book, deadly means are justified in defense of physical, emotional, spiritual and cultural integrity. My buddy Devin Harnois has been pointing me at Chuck Wendig’s Terribleminds blog for years; just in last weeks, I have bought nearly all of his writing books. Today he obligingly pointed me to the short-term sale price for books 2 and 3 of his Miriam Black series; like the completist I am, I bought the trilogy.

Wendig’s prose is laced with profanity, the kind of masterful cussing I learned from my momma. He’s got rhythm, and he makes me laugh so hard I can barely breathe. (Comedy pro-tip: if they laugh, the knife goes in deeper.)

I looked at the Wild Horses Gender Roundtable and realized that it was not only long but it was profane, and we were hilariously mean, not to mention there is a nice takedown of a peninsula-sized chunk of pop evo-psych bullshit, courtesy of my Consulting Microbiologist. So why hasn’t it been posted till now?

Life-sucking day job.

Self-censorship.

Yeah, in about that order. So, look for this in coming days.

Meanwhile, back to the Manifesto:

Your story is a picture of how you see things playing out in the world. Yes, it’s under a fantasy or science-fictional or musical-comedy mask, but that just makes it safe to speak. “Time-honored” story formulas embody somebody else’s notion of how the world works, who gets to be the hero(ine), what love looks like, what war is and when it’s justified, and who is human and who is not.

So (to quote my momma) fuck ’em if they can’t take a joke.

Write your story.

If it’s true, it’s probably subversive. I had no idea that Shape-shifter’s Tale did a takedown on genre tropes; I was holding up as my model Octavia Butler’s Parable of the Sower and Parable of the Talents, then as now my benchmark for the truly scary. I wrote what she had taught me (and I realized I already knew) about survival and community.

So tell your story first, before you worry how it fits with what everyone else is writing. Tell what’s true. Let it have its own rhythm.

Once you finish, know your enemy. Draw a bead on the lies, and use that knowledge to sharpen your tale into a weapon of unbearable beauty and/or deadly hilarity. I’m a long-lapsed Catholic but my favorite Bible verse remains, “The truth will make you free.” That goes double for artists, who follow the other admonition “Go thou and do likewise,” following in the image and likeness of the Creator, which is Creation (yeah, I’m a heretic–so anathemize me).

And go thou, Young Writers of all ages, and do likewise. Write with courage, joy, and verve. Write what you know, particularly if nobody else seems to know it. Preach the gospel of Oh Hell No, This is the Way it Happened, Mofo.

Turn your back on the stuff that saps your spirit, enrages your soul, depresses and oppresses and stomps into the ground your will to write. Join the anarchist sister- and brother-hood of Telling It Like It Is.

Fuckyeah, Amen. Go forth and Write!

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Goals: process goals

So for the record, my idea of professional output is 7500-10,000 words a day. Right now I’m 1/10 of the way there for today.

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Getting the Groove Back (Part 2): the fine art of multi-tasking

As I’m working on getting up to my notion of pro status, there are the product goals (stuff to finish, revise, publish) and process goals (daily output, hours devoted to writing). Today I am working on getting work done on the new novel, but also writing scenes for the “old” novels. Annie Brown and Lost Pissarro are scheduled for publication this month, so once I hit 2500 words on the new novel, I’m switching off and doing some missing scenes for those stories.

Great day and it’s spring, and once more I’m writing with colleagues. Positive Peer Pressure. Getting into the chair is the hardest part.

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Flash Fiction: Headspace

Once upon a time on the Original World, there was an old man who traded one eye for wisdom.

The story is ancient; it came with us on the journey-ships, and traversed the Original Jump. Scholars tell us that it far predates the journey-ships, but like all good stories we know its truth on another soil under another sky.

I did not make a trade with the fates as he did — and that’s a device of the storyteller, I think; I do suspect the Old Man of the Ravens simply set out to acquire wisdom, and only after the fact learned its price.

***

They call me Mavra Two-Eyes. One of my eyes is human, the one I was born with; the other is a cybernetic wonder that sees through the whole spectrum. No liar, however skilled, can fool all the senses; the lie always depends on the willing belief of the lied-to. Above all, beware your uneasy desire to believe the best, even if your senses command the entire electromagnetic spectrum. No fortress falls but is betrayed from within.

Seven years a cadet, forty years a Ship’s Captain, and now I dispense wisdom to grubber apprentices like my child-self.

Listen, children. The vid-dramas on the Downlink show you space-battles. Those are no more real than the courage of the leading actors. Real space battles don’t last long.

Mine didn’t.

After the fact, they pieced it together.

After the fact, they pieced me together.

What I remember? Nothing. Flashes.

I sealed my coverall and felt its temporary air supply deploy. I turned to the escape pod.

Flash — and black.

***

I woke up–what was left of me–in the arms of the Ship’s Avatar-Ashore. Eye to eye, Timur Ship’s-Heart in his mortal face, my remaining eye to his cybernetic beauty, only his face and hands a portrait. I could feel nothing below the neck. There was a reason for that.

Half of me was lost, and all of my Ship but a remnant. Let me count the dead: my other Captain (my brother), and my Ship (my love), and my Crew (my cousins).

Timur kept me infused with pain-killers, and when that failed, redirected the circuits. I never felt a thing.

Simulacrum. Timur was dead, had been since his skimmer failed over the Inland Sea. But they entombed what was left in a Ship. We are not so far from our ancestors, but in our world, human sacrifice is efficacious magic.

***

They repaired us. It’s in the treaty. Not enough of either of us remained for us to walk away alone, and the rest of them, more or less fortunate than we (ask me which; the answer changes by the hour) whirl in slow-motion as blown bio-debris in the zero-g blast field of the killer drone from T-7, forever turning in the dance that does not end. Buried in my process-threads are the last moments of everyone I have loved these forty years. It isn’t only the eye; half of me is not me at all. Like the ancient Androgyne, or a parable of the Life Cybernetic, I will never be alone again.

***

Remember, those vid-dramas are made planet-side. Oh and the slashing laser-battles, very pretty, but no one carries energy-weapons on board. The Ship won’t permit it; we’re not stupid. Do you want sharp bits bouncing around inside you? Would you eat broken glass?

When I took adulthood rites, I was Mavra Fix-all. I won my epithet in the battle of the maintenance corridors; I welded and hammered and jury-rigged my way to glory. Did it fail, I could fix it; Mavra’s a good-luck name. My legendary namesake, last of her doomed crew, welded herself on the other side of the wall when Dome Seven failed. She died but won the battle; she and her crew were the only casualties.

Hull-breached and blown to glory: that’s your space battle. And notice that nobody in those dramas looks the least like you? Planet-side aristos, every last one of them, just like those poseurs who wash out of spatio-temporal physics and crash their skimmers as if they could walk away and get a new body. And those Ships don’t talk; they’re just stage-sets. And there’s only one Captain, as if no one ever slept.

A real Ship is a parliament of intelligences; some were born in flesh, and others spawned as process-threads. Doesn’t matter, after a while. What you want, in a crisis, is the view from ninety degrees away.

And they play chess in five dimensions, backward, because it amuses them.

I’m still dreaming their dreams.

***

Someone at the Academy told me that the Old Man of the Ravens was an ancient god.

Timur laughed.

I just stared at them, with both my mortal eyes.  “Gods aren’t human,” I said.

What kind of fool needs to be told something so obvious? They talk about their Goddess of the Ancient Sea and their Queen of the Snows and their Daughter of Storms, but those are nothing more than personifications of the hydrological cycle, the great dance of the atmosphere of a planet more water than land. We are agnostics for a reason; think that the universe has the same motives as you, and like as not you’ll not only end dead, but take others with you.

The abyss looks back at us, and not only through the sensors of the Ship. But even in a human form, it does not look back with human eyes.

***

Flash fiction in answer to Chuck Wendig’s flash fiction challenge.

The narrator, Mavra Two-Eyes, is a character from Inside the Jump and Ship’s Heart.

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Meanwhile, in another part of the cosmos (Live from the Tuesday write-in: Ship’s Heart)

One of the delights of being an independent writer is that you can write in whatever order you like. My friends and I caught the trilogy bug, but I decided to write book 2 first.

Now I am writing book 1. Every detail lightly alluded to in the ‘past’ of book 2 is now in present-tense, razor-edged, high-noon focus. I just switched point-of-view for the third time, to an aristocratic six-year-old being dressed for a momentous occasion:

Martisset’s straight pale hair had been pulled into innumerable tightly braided queues which hung down her back behind a woven-wire coronet. When she closed her eyes, she could feel the tension through her scalp and forehead.

She stood straight and endured the inspection, as their four hands, far larger than hers, pulled at one or another detail of uniform. Unlike her many clan-cousins, she was an only child and there were no siblings to diffuse the disgrace of any solecism of dress or deportment; at six years old, she was simultaneously the eldest and the youngest child of her parents, the Master of the Great Shipyard at Karisalay-Prime and the Senior Designer of Simulations for the Academy and the Spaceport.

On her head, and hers alone, rested their clan-prestige.

Today she would be presented to Tethys Saiph yr Astok and her consort Yuki Afanasi yr Iskri. Yuki-Iskri had been off-world with an Institute expedition, which had delayed Martisset’s presentation by nearly a year.

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