Weekend Writing Warriors: Sunday 9 June 2013 (Vampire Variations)

The door of the laboratory opens, and the man walks in. 

“And what do you think you’re doing this time of night?”

Mina’s voice is calm, more than some would be.

“I’m at work.” Her face composes itself. I can almost hear the thought, and when do you think the work gets done, and by whom?

I see him in the dead light of the laboratory bench, and the faint light of the stars. He has traversed an envious youth to reach the foothills of successful middle age, and the journey has graven itself on his countenance: not a face I would have cared to meet, living or dead, though I did, in my days of youth. More than one such was proposed to me as a marriage party, and I refused.

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Excerpt from my contribution to the Vampire Variations challenge. It’s back from the beta readers (shout-out to faithful colleagues Devin Harnois, TruantPony, and Becca Patterson) and under revision. Publication is slated for upcoming weeks, with cross-links to other Vampire Variations Challenge stories.

Weekend Writing Warriors offers eight-sentence excerpts from a variety of writers; see the other excerpts here.

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Writer’s notebook: more on community

I’m coming to the end of a week of unexpected illness, which has made everything very much more difficult. Editing has slowed to a crawl, and the only thing I have been able to work on with much attention is the long-deferred project of packing up my inactive projects and organizing the others.

When I say “long-deferred,” I mean that it’s been hanging fire for two decades. As an Artist with a Day Job, I have been impatient with anything that gets between me and doing the work. Even setting up a work space (some years ago) sent me into a slow boil of rage and frustration. Every minute I was working on that was a minute not spent on the work, but I needed that work space to do the work. I knew a lot of other artists who were subsidized by family money or wealthy spouses. I didn’t bother talking to them, not wanting to hear the usual blithe good cheer about “choices” and “life balance” in the face of other people’s struggles.

As I slow down to think about it, things are very different now.

Operating at half-strength makes me think about what I can realistically get done right now. I have lots of students, protege(e)s, and friends to whom I have given great, research-based advice (work in 90-minute bouts at most, don’t forget to take breaks, step back from time to time and reflect on what you’ve learned). Now that advice is coming back to me.

What else is coming back: a real sense of community. Off-camera, this has been a very difficult year in Day Job and in Life, and in the last weeks I have heard over and over again:

“Is there anything I can do to help?”

“I can help you with this task, and here’s somebody who can help you with this other one.”

“If things go really bad, I’ve got you covered.”

I’ve relearned in another arena what I already knew from NaNoWriMo: when something’s really, really hard, the presence of friendly supportive people can make all the difference. There’s the protegee who hangs out with me while I pack up the books and project files, carefully guiding me back on track when my brain starts to glitch at the sheer scale of the problem; there’s my nephew who walks with me to a particularly stressful appointment; there’s the friends who talk with me without judgment and offer ways to think about the present struggle.

The last time things were this hard, it was just me and my partner. I’d wake up in the middle of the night with the gut-sick terrified conviction that if something happened to one of us, the other would be completely alone. Now, after decades of trial and error, we have a real community that spans generations and cultures. One thing I do notice is that my closest friends are one or two generations from real poverty and come from cultures expert in collective survival against a hostile majority. The favor you do today, when you’re feeling strong, is returned tomorrow when you’re not so strong. Karmic debts to parents and mentors are paid forward to children and protege(e)s. This is how most working human societies have operated, but in the USA it’s counter-cultural, quite literally against the culture of White Majority Corporate Suburbia (or City, given that the rich are once more “taking back their cities” via gentrification).

So, moving slowly toward better health, I’m feeling thankful for the good people in my life who have come through for me over and over again.

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Weekend Writing Warriors: Sunday 2 June 2013 (Vampire Variations)

“No more stories, you said, but there are stories that are true, and you ought to know which ones they are.” I won’t add what I overheard without his knowledge, that she knows those stories as well as anyone in these latter days, and she had the wit to test which bits of the lore were accurate, and arm herself with a second line of defense.

“Vampires are romantic,” Terence says. “You hole up in the university stacks, but I’ve gone to the public library. There are shelves of stories about us now.” The smirk again. “And some of them are quite complimentary. Any girl would want a vampire beau.”

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Excerpt from my contribution to the Vampire Variations challenge. It’s back from the beta readers (shout-out to faithful colleagues Devin Harnois, TruantPony, and Becca Patterson) and under revision. Publication is slated for upcoming weeks, with cross-links to other Vampire Variations Challenge stories.

Weekend Writing Warriors offers eight-sentence excerpts from a variety of writers; see the other excerpts here.


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Weekend Writing Warriors: Sunday 26 May 2013 (Vampire Variations)

“You are a fool, Terence. Does it occur to you why there are so few of us, even if we be immortal?” Now I have his attention, for this is his hobby-horse. “One may be immortal in fact, but we are still subject to mortal accident. Did you not see …” No, best not to mention that stake she was carrying. Let us keep this to the abstract plane. “There is a lore, Terence, and as you well know, some body of it is quite accurate.”

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Excerpt from my contribution to the Vampire Variations challenge. It still doesn’t have a title, but it does have beta readers (shout-out to faithful colleagues Devin Harnois, TruantPony, and Becca Patterson). Look for updates in coming weeks.

Weekend Writing Warriors offers eight-sentence excerpts from a variety of writers; see the other excerpts here.

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Live from CONQuesT: How do you write so fast? (Writer’s Notebook)

This afternoon I participated on a great panel called “How do you write so fast?” about habits of productive writers, alongside Devin Harnois and moderator John Hornor Jacobs. All three of us had taken the vow to write our novel “now” rather than “some day,” and followed through.

I’m not the only one whose Chief Muse is the Angel of Death.

All three of us are National Novel Writing Month “graduates,” but we realized that the first draft isn’t the final draft, the first novel isn’t The Novel but first of a series, every project is different …

I’m not the only one who’s had to re-invent work process, framework, “outline” or other structure, for each new project.

… and that there’s a paradoxical balance of individual, solitary effort and the support of communities of practice. Raised Catholic, I still think of the “community of the saints living and dead,” all the people who’ve taken up the task of creation and carried it through. We need to surround ourselves with examples, learn how this work was done in other times and places by people who nonetheless had struggles similar to ours (words-to-page, day after day, being the Primal Struggle).

I talked about the toxic reader (a frustrated writer a generation older) who told me my fiction was shit when I was 17, and how careful I have been ever since about whom I choose for my artistic fellow-travelers.

John talked about the feedback of editors, those invaluable and under-sung heroes who help writers make their books better, and the tricky balance between his own creative rhythm and what might be workable as a book deal.

In response to an audience question about how to handle the distraction of the Shiny Thing, that idea for Yet Another Project that arrives in the middle of the project you’re working on now, Devin pointed out that they visit her about a third of the way through any given project. She writes them up, sticks them in a folder called “Story Ideas,” and moves on. The Shiny Thing can be distraction or gift; it’s all a matter of how you handle it.

I remembered in response that the Moment of Artistic Despair typically marks the 85-90% point of any of my projects.

And perfectionism is the enemy of excellence, and nobody’s sure when their book is “done,” only that it’s time to finish it and move on. That’s where that second or third or fourth set of eyes can be invaluable.

I saw couples in the audience snuggle and look at each other fondly when we talked about how to treasure the supportive partner in your life, the one who believes in you even though you’re not making Big Money. George Sand and Frederic Chopin were my first example, working side by side, she at her desk and he at his piano, believed in each other’s work in the most practical possible way, just as our NaNo buddies believe in us when we work side by side at a write-in.

In American culture, we talk a lot about individual accomplishment, often to the exclusion of the context of community. What are writers, really, but the communal story- and truth-tellers? There are real people in our lives (friends, colleagues, life partners) who make our work possible. As I read about writers in the past, I always find communities of practice, folks working alongside, bouncing ideas off each other, riffing on each other’s work like jazz musicians.

Over the years, it’s been great to read about the artistic communities of the Literary Immortals. That reading taught me to recognize the Real Thing when I finally had it.

So it’s an early Thanksgiving in Kansas City, a pause for gratitude to all the folks, living and dead, who have made my work — our work — possible.

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Weekend Writing Warriors: Sunday 19 May (Vampire Variations: waiting on the endgame)

I wait, just outside the barrier. The night is shrill with crickets; they sense the end of time and sing, calling to each other. The air wraps us round with caressing warmth, so that early-evening sip suffices to keep me anchored here. Maddening, to serve time on Terence and his foolishness. Did I make this bargain, step across the threshold between worlds, so that I could hover here like a ghost between walls? The library calls to me, yet I know that I must persist here, must see what foolishness Terence will commit—

Though of course I do not know if I can intervene in time.

And what he does, what he tells—

I do not want to think about that. I have a few plans of my own, should it all go awry; I have sanctuaries elsewhere, libraries I have haunted in my day. But I like this place, I have come to be settled here; there’s an ample supply of books and journals that no one else troubles to read.

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Excerpt from my contribution to the Vampire Variations challenge. No longer a work-in-progress, it’s now with its beta readers. Look for updates in coming weeks.

Weekend Writing Warriors offers eight-sentence excerpts from a variety of writers; see the other excerpts here.

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Genre Trouble: Works and Days

Writing is the only trade I know that has a forty-year apprenticeship.

If you talk to me in ten years, I will tell you that it’s the only trade that has a fifty-year apprenticeship.

We’re never quite there yet. Always, just out of reach, glimmers the next stage of mastery. Only in the last five years has it become clear to me what my Great Subject is, a sticky tangle of work and history and the ugly things in the past that make people deeply, deeply uncomfortable. This afternoon I was re-reading the writing I did preparatory to the revision of my 2010 NaNo novel, The Shape-shifter’s Tale. Character interviews, I called them at the time, but now they look more like independent stories. They all orbit about the same set of events, but changing the point of view changes the story.

This story is about me, because I stand at the center telling it.

Even the tightly-wound villain thinks it’s about him, and close-mouthed though he be, tells more than he thinks.

Currently they reside in a folder called “Future Projects.” I think that each is about to move to a folder of its own, and thence to the wide world.

Some time in the next weeks, I’m going to dig into the old project folders, the ones that are all on paper, and find the skeleton and the fragments for the space opera I began writing three decades ago. That project has wakened to life again, and bids fair to be November’s novel, if it doesn’t demand its time sooner: a locked-room mystery set on a starship, where an immortal dictator has been murdered by someone who is not the assassin assigned to the case. I’ve been reading lots of space opera lately in preparation, as well as in escape from my own Day Job dilemmas.

Thirty years later, the characters are far more in focus. The starship captain is a reservation kid who joined the armed forces to get out of a dead-end place. The assassin is a dedicated professional who inherited the charge from a conspiracy that’s gone on for centuries. And the academics in the picture who looked like heroes and ideals to the teenager who first set out to write this tale have mutated into something altogether murkier and more interesting.

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Weekend Writing Warriors: Sunday 12 May 2013 (Vampire Variations: an offer forestalled)

“Life’s what you make of it,” she says, which was cliche when I was young eight hundred years ago. “And life is change. The only thing immortal is cancer.” Her tone shifts, into the dreamy music of the storyteller, “Once upon a time, there was a beautiful woman who died in pain, but before she went they took a bit of the tumor that killed her… and it lives forever. It’s been replicating in glass dishes more than half the last century.” She looks up, eyes alight in the darkness. “Even if she’d lived, she’d be an old woman now, but her cancer is ageless. And everyone’s made money from it but her kith and kin.”

Terence steps back and looks at her, an odd sour look of appraisal on his face.

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Excerpt from my work-in-progress in response to the Vampire Variations challenge. Weekend Writing Warriors offers eight-sentence excerpts from a variety of writers; see the other excerpts here.

Notes: The ‘beautiful woman’ of this story is Henrietta Lacks, the unknowing donor of the HeLa cell line. The full story is told in The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks.

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Weekend Writing Warriors: Sunday 5 May 2013 (Vampires in the library II: of dime novels and infinity)

I am reading Cantor’s paper on the transfinite numbers, with the famed diagonal argument — reminiscent of my youth, because I first read that argument in Latin, either in my living youth or at a time when the memory of life was near enough to be almost the same thing.

Terence is reading a lurid dime novel, from the popular culture collection of the university stacks.

Something with pirates, or cowboys, or princes in exile with hidden troves of rubies and tiger-skins in a mansion on Park Avenue: the sort of thing that Jay Gatsby would have read in his boyhood. (Yes, by way of curiosity, I do read tales in the modern manner, but I like my romanticism tempered with a bit of realism. Monsieur Fitzgerald is quite right; that story never ends well.)

The ephemeral trash of the storytellers of printing-press and pulp paper is now burning away in its own acid, and the library keeps it in treasure-boxes like Crusaders’ spoils of war.

There are advantages to seeing in the dark. The custodians of the library would not let us in by daylight, nor would we care to go.

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Excerpt from my work-in-progress in response to the Vampire Variations challenge. Weekend Writing Warriors offers eight-sentence excerpts from a variety of writers; see the other excerpts here.

Notes: Cantor’s diagonal argument is one of the foundations of the theory of transfinite numbers. The original argument dates from the Middle Ages and was updated by divinity-student-turned-mathematician Georg Cantor to late nineteenth century mathematical notion (and duly footnoted).

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Coffeehouse tour, redux: writing in a pack

Today I’m back at Lavvu Coffee, after work with a posse of writing pals (I count seven of us in all) tippytapping away on projects that range from term papers to resumes to vampire stories. (OK, now we think about vampire resumes, which is a whole ‘nother.) It’s raining outside, which is relatively good news, since earlier it was snowing.

I never wrote in company until I first took up National Novel Writing Month in November 2008, as the first act of my sabbatical year. Now that I’m working on my resume, the meaning of that year is dropping into place at five years’ distance. Between November 2008 and October 2009, I studied the way that creative enterprises take shape in both team and individual settings. The write-in brings the arcane business of writing down from Mount Olympus or Delphi to the ordinary landscape of the coffee house or living room or library, where people meet to get work done together. We bout, and then we compare notes and trouble-shoot if that’s requested, and then we jump back in and get some more work done.

Contemporary educational research suggests that the most effective learning happens in study bouts of 30-90 minutes’ duration, coincidentally just the length of timed bouts in our write-ins, with breaks in between for stretching, change of subject, bathroom break, etc. Those micro-bouts (30 minutes or so at a time) get lots of work done in little bites, kind of like those ten-minute walking breaks that add up to the 30 minutes a day of exercise that separates the high-risk sedentary from the healthy life.

Over the last 150 years, we’ve learned a tremendous amount about how human beings best work, rest, and eat (in bursts, punctuated by other activity). That extensive body of knowledge is still ignored, by and large, by our large institutions: our classrooms, workplaces, and hospitals. When we get together at a write-in, and do intense sprints of work, in between encouraging each other or laughing together, we’re touching down on the true secret of life. This is how it works, this is how work flows, this is how life finds its sweetest notes even as we’re complaining about the thing that won’t write itself fast enough.

And now … back to it. The vampire story awaits, and the resume.

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